Ariel's Lament

What if our life spin around the consequences of one and only choice we make? How can we know what do we have to choose between and when we have to choose? Would we know when this time will come? Would we know if this time is already due past and now we only have to suffer the consequences that come from our lack of perception?

Damned in a world that will take away everything that has been good and bringing only more suffering to those that were oblivious of what was really going on in their own life... Are they to be blamed? Are they to be pitied? How can we know if we're not one of them? I know I have made some terrible choices in my life, but... How can I know if any of them was the Choice?

Sometimes, when I'm all alone and all the world around me seem to have forsaken me, I seem to know that my Choice was already made... And I know that I have failed... Is there any chance to correct the past or, even better, choose again, based in what we now know? And even if it's possible, would we know how, what and when to choose again?

The Dream Within

We try to live life like a way to fulfill our dreams. I always believed that someday, in a misty and far-away future I could finally live my Dream. Some people dream about wealth beyond measure. Other of pleasures that cannot be satisfied by only one person or only once. Others dream about changing the world and do a great good, or a great evil...

I have my dreams. I'm sure you also have yours.

Dreams might change from time to time. Desires that you see that have no reasons to be. Wishes that, once fulfilled, do not satisfy. Dreams that die from lack of faith.

I have faith. Do you have yours?

Dreams are hard to achieve, because you have to work hard. Most of the people that lives in this dying world stop fighting for the things they believe and the things they love. I've fought a lot. I've lost a lot. Losing is a part of the fight. Some times you lose...

Will I ever win?

Wish

Sometimes there aren't too many things to think about... Some times there are too many...

I wish I could hate some things of the past... If I could hate them, I would eventually forget about them, and then I could move on... That's a natural course of life... I don't think I follow ANY course at all...

There are times we want to change the past... There are times we want to see the future... All I want is to get rid of the present, because it doesn't offer me anything that I want or anything that I need...

All I need is redemption... All I need is salvation... All I need is......